My mother in law passed away this weekend and i am finding myself running through all the emotions. I am so sad and i am going to miss her so much. I got so used to my "Sharon Fridays", that's what we called it. We spent every friday together, it was our day! I spent last friday with her and that was the last friday we had together. I am going to miss our day together so much. I just want to sit here and cry all day but these dang kids won't let me sit still for even a minute. I need a break to just sit with all these emotions i am feeling. Calgon take me away! I feel lucky that i was able to be with her and help her in her journey to heaven and to tell her how i felt about her. I am one of those people that likes for my loved ones to know how i feel about them. So i am thankful for the opportunity to do that. I don't feel any regrets, i feel like i did everything i could do and i am peaceful with that. It's just all so surreal. It feels like she can't go, like she has to come back, i want her to come back, so selfish of me since she is in a much better place than we are here. As my smarter than her age niece Abbi taught me " there is no sickness or sadness in heaven". How do children get so smart, we adults sure do have a lot to learn from them. Sorry for the ramblings, i just have to get them out!