My mother in law passed away this weekend and i am finding myself running through all the emotions. I am so sad and i am going to miss her so much. I got so used to my "Sharon Fridays", that's what we called it. We spent every friday together, it was our day! I spent last friday with her and that was the last friday we had together. I am going to miss our day together so much. I just want to sit here and cry all day but these dang kids won't let me sit still for even a minute. I need a break to just sit with all these emotions i am feeling. Calgon take me away! I feel lucky that i was able to be with her and help her in her journey to heaven and to tell her how i felt about her. I am one of those people that likes for my loved ones to know how i feel about them. So i am thankful for the opportunity to do that. I don't feel any regrets, i feel like i did everything i could do and i am peaceful with that. It's just all so surreal. It feels like she can't go, like she has to come back, i want her to come back, so selfish of me since she is in a much better place than we are here. As my smarter than her age niece Abbi taught me " there is no sickness or sadness in heaven". How do children get so smart, we adults sure do have a lot to learn from them. Sorry for the ramblings, i just have to get them out!

Why does life have to go by at record speed? I wish for one minute i could slow down and enjoy it! It's flying by before my eyes and i can't seem to slow it down....Next week leah will be turning 5 and JJ will be turning 1! It hardly seems possible but it is! Let's see if i can recap a little of what has been going on with me. I went home to Va. for my Grandmother's 90th birthday, which was amazing. I miss seeing my family sooo much. My grandmother has been pretty sick ever since then and has been moved to extended care. My sister is amazing and the best caregiver to grandmother i could ever ask for. She keeps those nurses in line over there and one day she will make the best nurse herself and people will be lucky to have her care for them! On this side of the world my life seems to be going at record pace. i teaching at jazzercise quit a bit and i really enjoy it. trying to keep up with my kids seems nearly impossible. they are growing and maturing so quickly. my mother in law is back in the hospital. they are still trying to figure out what is going on with her. so say your prayers for her and my grandmother! i could go on for days about details on the kids, but that would take days and i have to get going on my day :)

Grandmother

So i did it! I finished the half marathon! and that's all that matters and the rest is history. check that off the list of things to do. now on to my next adventure! training to become a jazzercise instructor. woo-hoo. I have my workshop in june and have learned 5 of the 10 cardio routines that i have to learn.

Reno rock-n-river half Marathon

So tomorrow i am doing the half marathon in reno! Wish me luck as i will need it. i will try to post pictures later.

So life is moving along faster than i can keep up with it. I turn around and the week is over, i turn around and i haven't updated my blog for almost 2 months, i turn around and my son is now 5 months old! How did all this happen? Life is very busy with 3 but also full of Joy, oh and some headaches too! I am training to become a Jazzercise intructor and trying to get into shape for that, training or lack of training for a half marathon in may. Life is good i could complain about stuff i can't do anything about but where does that get yah, nowhere. so i just keep on going. just got their easter pictures taken a little late but better than never, and they are so cute! JJ is turning into such a little man and not looking so much like a baby anymore, that makes me sad, i just want to hold him and snuggle him forever and he's growing so quickly!

Easter pictures of my babies!

thoughts...

You know i take for granted how good my life is until i hear of someone i know who has it way worse than me! Silly how it takes something like that to make me really look at my life and reavaluate. I have so much to be thankful for and i really need to stop stressing about all the crap that i can't change and be happy for what i do have. So thank you for the wake up call, i hear yah loud and clear!

My Grandma

Today i have to say goodbye to my Grandma. She passed away last night and i am just so thankful that i was able to see her on my last trip to Va. and that she was able to meet little JJ. She thought he was such a little angel and was so happy to meet him. This picture was just taken a few weeks ago. Rest in peace with God and i will miss you and love you always!

My trip to Virginia

Grandma and Grandad, Grandma had just gotten home from the hospital

GG( Grandma Gail)

My favorite picture! Grandmother and I.

Kimberly looking beautiful after track practice!

This was typical of the way JJ and Grandmother were the whole time they were together. peas in a pod. He would just smile from ear to ear and cooo at her, it was the cutest thing you have ever seen!

Aunt Brittany loving on little JJ! She just couldn't get enough of him

Grumpy Grandpa and JJ's first meeting.

Here they are stretched out on the bed having the best time together.

Me and dad

Jesalyn

lunch with nicole and alexander

noah's basketball game

7 Weeks

my favorite smile picture so far!

An angel sent from God! He is such a sweet little baby, and i can't wait to go back to va. and show him off to the family!