Sammy

So on March 10th Sammy pulled a curio (glass) cabinet over on top of herself. We rushed her to the ER. The dr. on duty took a look at her and said he was going to call in a plastic surgeon to stitch her up. How nice of him to consider her face and what it might look like years later. So we waited and he showed up and was very nice. they had to sedate her and John held oxygen up to her face while the dr. stitched her, i sat back because i was so upset. i would have ended up on the floor, i felt like i was going to puke as it was. He worked on her for close to an hour and about 40 stitches later she was all put back together. Today she only has one stitch left to dissolve, and she is doing really well. She has her moments where things scare her, she is not the fearless little sam sam she used to be. She thinks random things are going to fall on her, like the front door or the refrigerator. Things that are new to her or that she hasn't done in a while scare her, and i know that so i just try to hold her close and reassure her that she is okay and i'm going to protect her. I'm not sure that i will ever get over the images that are burned in my mind of seeing her laying there under that cabinet with glass all over her and blood everywhere. Not the sort of thing that goes away. At first my thoughts were seriously what now. why me, haven't i done enough good deeds? Then i looked at her with her bandages and i said to God ok i get it! I hear you loud and clear. Yeah this shitty aweful thing happened to my baby, but you know what i still have her here and she can see and smile and play just like before, sure she has a few scars but who cares. The important and biggest lesson for me is that he didn't take my baby away from me! It really could have been so much worse, one inch in either direction and it could have been her eye or her throat. So i just have to look at her everyday and thank God that he spared her life and i still have my baby! Thank You God!