Today was one hell of a day. and not in a good way. Sam had an appointment with a pediatric surgeon this morning. She has two hernias ambilical and ventral. I thought we'd go in there and she would say surgery in maybe 2 years but she didn't. She said surgery now...so Sam is going to be having surgery in a month. Oct. 9th...I am totally freaking out...this is my baby going under anethesia and being cut open and sewn back together and I am scared to death. I could puke. Then I get home and call the vet because they haven't called me about Kobe, and they said his ashes were in which hit me in the gut again. It just makes it real that he's not coming back, not that I thought he was but it just hurts all over again. So I have spent my day crying over my two babies. What a shitty day....