Sammy

So on March 10th Sammy pulled a curio (glass) cabinet over on top of herself. We rushed her to the ER. The dr. on duty took a look at her and said he was going to call in a plastic surgeon to stitch her up. How nice of him to consider her face and what it might look like years later. So we waited and he showed up and was very nice. they had to sedate her and John held oxygen up to her face while the dr. stitched her, i sat back because i was so upset. i would have ended up on the floor, i felt like i was going to puke as it was. He worked on her for close to an hour and about 40 stitches later she was all put back together. Today she only has one stitch left to dissolve, and she is doing really well. She has her moments where things scare her, she is not the fearless little sam sam she used to be. She thinks random things are going to fall on her, like the front door or the refrigerator. Things that are new to her or that she hasn't done in a while scare her, and i know that so i just try to hold her close and reassure her that she is okay and i'm going to protect her. I'm not sure that i will ever get over the images that are burned in my mind of seeing her laying there under that cabinet with glass all over her and blood everywhere. Not the sort of thing that goes away. At first my thoughts were seriously what now. why me, haven't i done enough good deeds? Then i looked at her with her bandages and i said to God ok i get it! I hear you loud and clear. Yeah this shitty aweful thing happened to my baby, but you know what i still have her here and she can see and smile and play just like before, sure she has a few scars but who cares. The important and biggest lesson for me is that he didn't take my baby away from me! It really could have been so much worse, one inch in either direction and it could have been her eye or her throat. So i just have to look at her everyday and thank God that he spared her life and i still have my baby! Thank You God!

This is Sammy Today!

Yuck

All bandaged up!

Right after getting her stitches and coming out of sedation.

My mother in law passed away this weekend and i am finding myself running through all the emotions. I am so sad and i am going to miss her so much. I got so used to my "Sharon Fridays", that's what we called it. We spent every friday together, it was our day! I spent last friday with her and that was the last friday we had together. I am going to miss our day together so much. I just want to sit here and cry all day but these dang kids won't let me sit still for even a minute. I need a break to just sit with all these emotions i am feeling. Calgon take me away! I feel lucky that i was able to be with her and help her in her journey to heaven and to tell her how i felt about her. I am one of those people that likes for my loved ones to know how i feel about them. So i am thankful for the opportunity to do that. I don't feel any regrets, i feel like i did everything i could do and i am peaceful with that. It's just all so surreal. It feels like she can't go, like she has to come back, i want her to come back, so selfish of me since she is in a much better place than we are here. As my smarter than her age niece Abbi taught me " there is no sickness or sadness in heaven". How do children get so smart, we adults sure do have a lot to learn from them. Sorry for the ramblings, i just have to get them out!

Why does life have to go by at record speed? I wish for one minute i could slow down and enjoy it! It's flying by before my eyes and i can't seem to slow it down....Next week leah will be turning 5 and JJ will be turning 1! It hardly seems possible but it is! Let's see if i can recap a little of what has been going on with me. I went home to Va. for my Grandmother's 90th birthday, which was amazing. I miss seeing my family sooo much. My grandmother has been pretty sick ever since then and has been moved to extended care. My sister is amazing and the best caregiver to grandmother i could ever ask for. She keeps those nurses in line over there and one day she will make the best nurse herself and people will be lucky to have her care for them! On this side of the world my life seems to be going at record pace. i teaching at jazzercise quit a bit and i really enjoy it. trying to keep up with my kids seems nearly impossible. they are growing and maturing so quickly. my mother in law is back in the hospital. they are still trying to figure out what is going on with her. so say your prayers for her and my grandmother! i could go on for days about details on the kids, but that would take days and i have to get going on my day :)

Grandmother

So i did it! I finished the half marathon! and that's all that matters and the rest is history. check that off the list of things to do. now on to my next adventure! training to become a jazzercise instructor. woo-hoo. I have my workshop in june and have learned 5 of the 10 cardio routines that i have to learn.

Reno rock-n-river half Marathon

So tomorrow i am doing the half marathon in reno! Wish me luck as i will need it. i will try to post pictures later.

So life is moving along faster than i can keep up with it. I turn around and the week is over, i turn around and i haven't updated my blog for almost 2 months, i turn around and my son is now 5 months old! How did all this happen? Life is very busy with 3 but also full of Joy, oh and some headaches too! I am training to become a Jazzercise intructor and trying to get into shape for that, training or lack of training for a half marathon in may. Life is good i could complain about stuff i can't do anything about but where does that get yah, nowhere. so i just keep on going. just got their easter pictures taken a little late but better than never, and they are so cute! JJ is turning into such a little man and not looking so much like a baby anymore, that makes me sad, i just want to hold him and snuggle him forever and he's growing so quickly!

Easter pictures of my babies!

thoughts...

You know i take for granted how good my life is until i hear of someone i know who has it way worse than me! Silly how it takes something like that to make me really look at my life and reavaluate. I have so much to be thankful for and i really need to stop stressing about all the crap that i can't change and be happy for what i do have. So thank you for the wake up call, i hear yah loud and clear!

My Grandma

Today i have to say goodbye to my Grandma. She passed away last night and i am just so thankful that i was able to see her on my last trip to Va. and that she was able to meet little JJ. She thought he was such a little angel and was so happy to meet him. This picture was just taken a few weeks ago. Rest in peace with God and i will miss you and love you always!

My trip to Virginia

Grandma and Grandad, Grandma had just gotten home from the hospital

GG( Grandma Gail)

My favorite picture! Grandmother and I.

Kimberly looking beautiful after track practice!

This was typical of the way JJ and Grandmother were the whole time they were together. peas in a pod. He would just smile from ear to ear and cooo at her, it was the cutest thing you have ever seen!

Aunt Brittany loving on little JJ! She just couldn't get enough of him

Grumpy Grandpa and JJ's first meeting.

Here they are stretched out on the bed having the best time together.

Me and dad

Jesalyn

lunch with nicole and alexander

noah's basketball game

7 Weeks

my favorite smile picture so far!

An angel sent from God! He is such a sweet little baby, and i can't wait to go back to va. and show him off to the family!

Christmas pictures 09

our little man

me and my sister Brittany

the girls. The pictures turned out ok this year. not as good as last year but good enough to work with. I was wishing for a better group picture but it just wasn't working out.

my favorite picture so far~

We had so much fun with aunt Brittany, and we were so sad to see her go home. John Jay gave her the first smile and here is a picture of one of the first smiles! I love it...

Gingerbread houses

Leah's house

Sam's house

Every year we build gingerbread houses, it is so much fun for us to come up with creations! Leah did pretty good on her own house this year, Sammy just wanted to eat the candy and leah tried to help her with her house and it all collapsed. we didn't do the all out party this year but got enough candy to cover the houses, it was still fun and we got out creativity out!